For He is Good

I've been thinking about thankfulness a lot lately. And that's just it. I have been thinking about it, but not practicing it in my life. Sure, I'm thankful for my husband, my job, my home, my friends and family, but I don't think my thankfulness has gone any further than that lately. It's almost like a vague thankfulness that anyone in the world could have—Christian, Hindu, Buddhist, atheist—anyone. It hasn't driven me to my heavenly Father, the giver and sustainer of life.

As you know, I'm a designer, so to help me meditate and memorize verses, I like to draw scriptures. As I was drawing Psalm 107:1, I was thinking about thankfulness. I had somewhat of an epiphany. I have only had this vague thankfulness because it's all about my comfort. I'm thankful for my husband, because quite frankly, he's awesome. Having an awesome husband makes life comfortable. So does my job, home, friends, and family.

Psalm 107:1 reminded me that the motivation of my thankfulness is God's goodness, not my comfort. My vague thankfulness has not driven me to worship because it has been dependent on my comfort level—and believe me, infertility is uncomfortable! While I know that God is good, I will admit that I've struggled with questioning His goodness. How could He let infertility happen to me? How could He let ___ die?

But God's goodness is not dependent on my circumstances. I'm choosing to believe God's goodness, and am choosing to be thankful in this situation knowing that God will work in it—someway, somehow. God is always good, and as He chips away the parts of my heart that are not good, I pray that I can learn to always be thankful.